DeBate Family

Alex is 3 years old!!!

2012-02-16T13:40:00.000-08:00

Zach so proud to be a big brother

Has it really been 3 years? I went into labor planning on a normal/smooth delivery. Only to end up with an emergency c-section... Alex's little hand wanted to come out first. It was a fast and crazy delivery. I was scared and of course crying. Danny was terrified (and crying) About 15 minutes later... I was holding my little angel baby Alex. What a sweetheart he has grown up to be. He sure is my inquisitive child out of the other 2. If he's quiet for any amount of time... be scared. He is all boy through and through. Dribbles a soccer ball across a field, throws a football exceptionally well, and is usually hitting or wrestling Zach. He always seems to make Zach cry. And with that being said... we really don't take our eyes off of him! He makes us all laugh with his demanding "I run the house" attitude.

We went to Chuck E Cheese as a family for Zachary's birthday, and ever since then (Feb 1st to be exact) that's all Alexander can talk about. So, guess where he chose to go tonight as a family? Yep... back to Chuck E's. I'm not a huge fan of this place, but they love it and seeing them excited and happy is what it's all about!

Happy Birthday tough guy!!!

7 years ago....

2012-02-01T22:32:00.000-08:00

At 39 weeks pregnant I walked into my OB demanding to have my labor started. I'm think they took me serious when I threatened that I would go home and preform a c-section. Hormones speaking? Yep.

My beloved Dr sent me to the hospital to get my labor started. Just as they started my IV... Whatdoya know... MY WATER BREAKS! Fantastic!!!I felt much better about myself knowing now that I wasn't rushing the birth of my first child! It was all meant to happen on that day. February 1st 2005.

My sweet Zachary...

We have been through so much together in these 7 short years. I'll never forget taking you home from the hospital. I sat in the backseat with you while Dad drove us home. I would yell at him whenever he took a turn too fast or hit a bump. You were (and still are) so fragile to me! I thought you were going to break. I was so nervous to have you home... I really had no idea what it looked like to be a Mom. I was so scared! Shortly after your first birthday I became very sick and didn't have the strength to care for you. I was able to keep you with me every other week, and the weeks in between Yia Yia had you with her. During that time I was being treated and putting up a mean fight! I know we've discussed this a few times. You were definitely too little to remember or know what was going on, but you must know one thing for certain... You were my will to survive! Your innocence and unconditional love pulled me through. What a gift you are to me! I can't imagine life without you. You teach me everyday the true meaning of patience and you show me unconditional love through your affection and tender heart. You're such a sweetheart to everyone (I love that about you) Hope you had a wonderful Birthday.

I love you so much!!!

xoxoxoxo

Mom

Quick update

2012-01-30T12:13:00.000-08:00

Hi! Remember me?

ok, real quick... top 10 things that's been happening around here for the past what.... 6 weeks?

1- We celebrate 5 years of cancer free!!!

2- Danny's 40th Birthday surprise downtown (dinner with family and an overnight stay. no kids!!!)

3- Christmas Day (Santa dropped off a few gifts!)

4- New Years Eve party with some of the greatest friends ever!

5- A small set back. Oncologist runs some tests... results are GREAT! (still cancer free!)

6- My FAMILY drives from Utah to surprise me!!!

7- Fun filled weekend with my brother Nick, sister in law Karen and my darling parents!

8- Olivia learns to WALK! She's all over the place... stay tuned.

9- Alexander is starting to use the potty. But... that's not going very good so far.... stay tuned.

10- We signed another year lease on this darling gingerbread house we call home in 4S Ranch. We love it here!

Walking and potty training... oh my! She isn't only walking, but getting more and more inquisitive. This makes for some very interesting potty training. She is curious... has her hands into everything (if you know what I mean) I think I'll invent a mommy tool belt (pink of course) Filled with tissues for nose wiping, upholstery/carpet cleaner for accidents, diapers, wipes, Q-tips, band-aides, room spray, goggles, rubber gloves, etc. etc....

Life is seriously amazing right now. Even though it's messy at times, exhausting and overwhelming... we are all healthy. We can walk, talk, eat, give kisses, hold one another. San Diego is as beautiful as ever. So happy we took a risk and focused on our dreams. It is truly a dream. I say it, post in on facebook, and talk about it non stop. Life is good!

xoxoxo

P.s For those that really do read this blog... thanks for checking in with us!

The boys at Danny's parent's house. Christmas Day

Point Loma Day after Christmas

My sweet ladies on New Years Eve!

Strollin the neighborhood!

Patio lunch in January... no big deal!

riding bikes in the neighborhood

I love (and miss) this guy!

Sushi dinner... adults only. (scary man in back with knifes)

us Greeks.... love to eat!

Really.... really??

2011-12-10T14:24:00.001-08:00

A month since my last post. Nice. I know I've done this many times in the past... and with that being said. I should be FIRED. Let's face it. I'm not a good blogger! But... I know you all still love me.

My sweet Mom and Dad came to visit us for a week during Thanksgiving. It was wonderful having them here. The kids love their Yia Yia and Papou so much! The night before they left and we said our goodbyes... Zachary was a mess. He cried so hard and of course my heart broke into a million pieces. Poor kid. He finally calmed down enough to go to his room and try to get sleep, only to come out of his room and sob some more. I held him.... we both cried.... then made a bowl of popcorn.... All better. What is it with popcorn? It's a fix all that's for sure!

Thanksgiving came and left super quick and now before I know it... Christmas is seriously in 15 days?!

This girl... LOVES her Papou. SO much! They just walked in and she couldn't wait to get her arms around him. Adorable! (crappy iPhone pic though)

Mini van cart at Target. I wouldn't recommend it... horrible turning radius.

Horton Plaza.... Downtown. My Dad loved downtown SD

Checking out all the people downtown

How cute are they?

My dad smiling. All kids looking, sitting still and smiling. Miracle right here!

Liv Lu with her Yia Yia

All mine!

2011-11-11T07:35:00.001-08:00

We had such a great time during this photo shoot. I'm absolutely obsessed with her work. She's not only so talented, but she has 4 kids of her own and knows just what to do and say to get the kids to pay attention. She lives in Utah, so if you live there... you would be silly not to use her all the time! If you live here in San Diego, she is here every few months. These are just a few of our favorites!

Thank you again Kristin Kanenwisher for capturing my beautiful family. xoxo

Tons of ruffles and fun!

2011-10-16T22:26:00.000-07:00

Olivia May

October 14, 2010 at 5:23pm

7lbs. 6oz. 18in long

Our sweet baby Liv is already a year old. I can't believe how quick that year went by! I've had so much fun planning her little party. I know she had no idea what was going on... and won't remember a thing, but later on.... I'm sure she will have a wonderful time looking at all the sweet moments we captured on camera!

Butter cream frosting doesn't come out of hair very easily! She got a quick bath after this.

Such a big girl. Happy Birthday my sweet Liv!

Thanks so much to everyone that came to celebrate with us. A special thanks to my darling Mom who put so much love and time into this adorable ruffle table cloth! And Charity Pykles for the amazing, delicious cakes.

New "bigger" bike

2011-09-17T14:35:00.000-07:00

Zach's new pride and joy! Purchased on Thursday night and immediately after school on Friday he was out riding from 3:30pm-7:30pm And he only came in because the sun went down, it was a school night, and we have a rule to not be on the bikes after dark.... or else he would've pulled an all nighter... riding bikes. He has a group of neighborhood kids he rides with. It's so cute! Or I guess I should say "Sweet. Or Rad. Or Awesome dude" he's so big. I tell him he's so cute and he starts turning red with... "mom..."

Checking out how it works. Handle Brakes and Gears. He's big.

The babes... Not so happy about the new bike. They want to ride too!

Liv Lu is just fine, now that she found her foot.

This is all he wants to do!

Soccer has begun!!!

2011-09-12T18:00:00.000-07:00

Zach did awesome. His team lost, but he was dealing with a bunch of professionals on the other team. You know the soccer mom that is on the side lines yelling? That was me. I'm not sure Danny is taking me next week. If I promise to be good maybe he will... :)

Alex is chillin with the boys during a water break

Alex using his binocs to get a close up of the team

And instantly... he's onto the next thing. Apparently he stepped in something

Liv Lu cheering and screaming like her mama

"GO ZACHARY GO. RUN RUN RUN!!!!"

First grade!

2011-09-03T15:05:00.000-07:00

Zach (as you can see) loves school! He wasn't one bit shy. He walked in like he owned the place. He has a few friends from his class last year. Of course when he walked in, the girls smiled big and said "Hi Zachary!!!!" So dang cute. What a fun age this is.

A bonfire without the fire

2011-08-10T15:59:00.000-07:00

I've had a lot of texts and emails asking about my 30th. I for sure should've blogged about this much sooner, but really... I'm such a horrible blogger this summer! So here are some details and photos....

My day started off with lunch on the patio of Miguel's. (right by our house) Just when we're about to order, my mom and aunt walk around the corner to our table!!! I screamed! I was so excited to have my Mama here! She flew out from Utah and stayed for a week. Honestly... perfect timing. I was needing some Mom time and the kids needed Yia Yia time too!

How cute is she?

After lunch Zach took me to The Smurfs. This was my favorite childhood cartoon and he was so excited to take me out. It was so cute and fun. He is such a sweetheart. I hate to think that one day he won't be taking me out on dates anymore... there will be some other girl!

Danny had been telling me for weeks that after the movie we were heading to the beach (just our family) for a little bonfire... hot dogs... smores... I've never done that, so I thought "sweet!!" We got home from the movie and packed the van with all things a small family of 5 would need for a bon fire. We even made a few stops on our way to the beach searching for hot dog roasting skewers. We finally found skewers and made our way to the water...

We got everything and everyone packed with "stuff" and walked down to a spot that Danny had supposedly scoped out. As we got closer I was beginning to see some familiar faces! The whole family was there (minus a few) patiently waiting!!!

Needless to say... no bonfire. Danny ordered take out from one of my most favorite restaurants. Everything was there and ready to go and look at my CAKE!!!! Danny had this made by a family friend that obviously is a professional! Uh-Maze-ING.

Yes that's a cake! Coach bag with all my crap spilling out...

Phone, makeup, toys, cheerios, burp rag, ear-rings, binky. Not only did it look perfect, but it was yummy.

Alex has his plate ready

Deann and Randy

David (we missed Karen) and Tommy. Allie's cute belly in back

Jerry and Janet

Liv, Kennedy and Brittany (cousins)

Brad and Allie

Lucy and Alex (cousins)

Alex and Amy (cousins)

Don and Maddie

Robin and Eric (my aunt and uncle)

Kennedy with her daddy (Tommy)

Cute cousins!

Danny totally got me this time. What a little planner he is. I catch onto everything, so I'm shocked he pulled it off. To have my mom fly in just to celebrate 30 years was awesome. It was a big day for her as much as it was for me! I have some amazing people and family in my life. I am SO blessed! Thanks to all of you who came to the beach for the "bonfire" What a way to celebrate!

Time flies when you're havin fun...

2011-07-30T00:13:00.000-07:00

 Another month has passed huh? Let me just break it down for ya. I'll put the events in order as they happened. A lot happens around here in a month.

-We drove to Utah for the 4th of July (yes. drove. 13 hours. 3 kids.)

- Played in Utah for a week.

-Came home. I got Shingles (yes. shingles.)

-Took lots and lots of drugs to get me through the shingles.

-Boys got their heads buzzed. Alex freaked. We held him down. He loves it now!

-Liv begins the army crawl as teeth just keep popping up left & right.

-Got a routine PET scan (for cancer stuff...)

-PET scan was clean. HUGE sigh of relief.

-Saw Gavin DeGraw, Maroon 5 and Train in concert.

-Shingles finally gone!

Talk about time flies when you're having fun... Tonight as I write I'll be leaving my 20's behind. Forever. Some of my THE most amazing events took place in my 20's. And some of the scariest. Not only with the cancer, but being so depressed and wanting to give up.

I was taking it all in tonight after I put the kids to bed. I found myself alone in our bedroom, staring off into space and seeing each event take place. I then realized... most of who I am today and all I/we have been through has been during my 20's. Most people don't even experience or go through what we have in that short of time. I'll break it down for ya again. Are you ready?

21... Met the love of my life, moved to San Diego to marry him.

22... Married an amazing man.

23... Moved back to Utah and Zachary was born.

24... Bought our first home. I was diagnosed with cancer.

25... Lost all my hair, finished chemotherapy, ran a full-marathon.

26... My eyes were open after years of depression.

27... Alexander was born. We were sealed in the temple. I had an ectopic pregnancy.

28... After years of day dreaming... we moved back to San Diego.

29... My sweetest Olivia is born. 4 years cancer free! 

Would you cry tears of joy or sadness? I experienced so many wonderful, amazing things and I almost lost my life a couple of times. I'm scared to be such a grown up! I'm the baby in my family and I've always been "babied" if you will... Now I'm the one doing the babying. I love it. I'll just answer my own question! My tears are nothing but joy. My life is blessed. These angels that surround me have taught me love and brought pure joy to my life. I love my job as mommy and I can't imagine going through this journey without Danny. 

So... Here's to 30. My 30's will be nothing short of amazing. 

Bridal Veil Falls in Utah

Saturday afternoon at Sea Port Village

Love these boys!

Let the good times roll

2011-06-16T21:33:00.000-07:00

Have I really neglected this thing for an entire month? Ouch.

So, Zach is out of school. June 9th was his last day of kindergarten. Ever since school got out I hear at least 3 times a day how excited he is to start 1st grade! And... with the first week of summer that we've had together so far. I'm very excited for him to start 1st grade too. Ok, it hasn't been that bad. However this is my first go around with all 3 kids full-time. When Olivia was born Zach had half day kindergarten.

Since Full-day kindergarten started Alexander was very satisfied being the only one home playing with all the toys on his own. Now it's just one big party! On the bright side... there is no rushing around in the mornings getting Zach to school on time. And of course Alex really loves hangin with Zach! 

{class of 2023}

{Mrs. Stokes & Zach} 

 {all kinder classes singing at friday flag day}

Summer time fun!
 This splash park is amazing. There's a huge play structure in the  same complex. It's all fenced in with key-card access for 4s Ranch  residence only. So it's not packed with a ton of people. It's been so  fun for the kids!

{Cousins}

{Liv Lu 8 months} 

{She found a treasure in her hand}

And the best part of summer
{Zach on the beach at sunset}

{Saw this off our exit}

Last but not least. I'm going to  
change the subject real quick...

Santa Clause

Easter Bunny

Tooth Fairy
etc. 

Are we really telling our kids that these weird characters are coming into our home at night while we sleep? The thought alone freaks me out. No wonder why they don't sleep when these holidays/events take place. I feel like a liar by getting them all excited about the "strangers' sneaking around the house. 

This isn't just some random thought... Zachary lost his first tooth yesterday. Tooth Fairy forgot to come last night. Mom is feeling guilty! He was so sad this morning. I have no excuse. I had every opportunity to make the swap, and forgot as I fell fast asleep in my cozy bed. 

{The missing tooth... & tooth fairy}

Please oh please, share with me your thoughts on this subject. Maybe I'm looking into it too much. Maybe it's just fun for the kids to have this imaginary person sneak into the house at night?

The tooth fairy is on her way to fulfill her duties. Six year old will be smiling tomorrow morning. Not crying. 

You won't believe it...

2011-05-18T21:06:00.000-07:00

Something new has entered my life. It's been here all along really... but I am just now opening my eyes to it. Are you ready for it? Drum roll please...

Eating more healthy.

And not just me. Everyone that lives under this roof! Most of you that know me well are probably in a state of shock right now. I'll admit I have never been a healthy eater. I'm a fast food junky and I live each day knowing I can drink an ice cold coke. Times have changed (I sneak a coke in once a week though) 

Last month our ward had a Relief Society night and the lesson was on eating healthy, preparing quick nutritious meals, and putting nutritious things into food we prepare on a regular basis. I've had my eyes opened since that night. And I'm loving that I am more aware about what we're all eating around here.

For starters this is what I've done. Because you must remember this is a a HUGE step for me! I wont buy bread or bagels unless they are whole wheat or 7 grain. Every morning I've been making smoothies for everyone. I include ground flax seed (found at costco or any health food store) Dried Goji berries. Frozen or fresh fruit (whatever I have on hand). Pure organic carrot juice and Acia berry juice. (both from costco) "Naked Juice" has a power berry juice, green juice, and protein juice (costco or any grocery store) I include one of those and sometimes ice. It's like an experiment in the kitchen every morning. Me, the blender and all things healthy. It's been a real hit around here. Which leads me to the next thing...

Waffles, pancakes, french toast. All things the kids love to eat in the morning. I include ground flax seed and for the batter use organic whole wheat flour. Then I top it off with a little butter and organic maple syrup. Another favorite is Toast. A little butter, and sprinkle with flax seed. They don't even know the difference. It's kind of fun... and sneaky!

Are you ready for the SNEAKY of all SNEAKIES? (is that a word?)

I found out about this book from our Pediatrician. Because I have this 2 year old that is the pickiest eater on the planet (I think) He will not touch a vegetable. Ever. I was spoiled with Zachary. He will eat EVERY vegetable on the planet! 

I'm very excited about this because I got this cookbook and used it tonight for the very first time. It's brilliant I tell ya...

This is how it works. She has recipes for Puree's. These puree's include yummy nutritious vegetables. She explains exactly how to make the puree (there are 9 I believe) she titles them by color. Purple puree, Orange puree, Yellow Puree, etc. etc. 

THEN...

You make some gross thing that the kids love to eat. Like a can of Spaghetti O's. This is the one I did tonight for Alex, while the rest of us ate something better (homemade chili) And you put the Orange puree into the spaghetti O's mix it all up and BOOM. Alex got sweet potato's and carrots tonight and didn't even know it! He ate so good. HA!

This is her website.

{The Sneaky Chef}

She  has a ton of free recipes and all the recipes for the puree's. Tomorrow  night I'm doing boxed mac 'n cheese. Alexander LOVES mac 'n cheese. (I'll be including the orange puree)

*PS. do not let your kids read this blog. Our secret might get out. 
This is very confidential.

shhhhhhh. 

A day to propose on...

2011-05-16T16:24:00.000-07:00

This is just too cute. This we taken after Danny proposed to me 8 years ago TODAY! I'm very grateful I gave him an ultimatum otherwise we would still be dating.

Love you sweetheart! 

Every Mom's Dream...

2011-05-10T17:44:00.000-07:00

After a Saturday afternoon filled with shopping and lunch with my sweet Sisters and Mother in law my sweet boys took me out to dinner, then we rushed home because Zachary had a "surprise" for me. I was told to wait downstairs on the couch. As I waited patiently I could hear a lot of sneaking around upstairs.

Zachary came down to escort me to this...

 Entrance to master bedroom

"Mom's Day Spa"

At this point my heart is melting!

I was given specific instructions (by zach) to go into my bathroom...

Door to Master Bath

"Steam Room and Bath"

Zach: "please put your robe on and soak your feet here..."

Keep in mind... my mouth is gaping open. The lights were all dim with a few accent candles... 

Just darling.

I did as I was told... Soaked my feet! Then was directed back into my bedroom...

In a very serious voice... 

Zach: "Have a seat right here so I can rub your feet." 

How relaxing does that look? 

"Massage Chair" 

He painted this for me at school. The most precious thing ever.

I sat down (with a huge smile on my face the entire time...) and Zach began putting my favorite night-time lotion on my feet (lavender body lotion from bath and body)

He jumped up real quick...

Zach: "Oh... NO! I forgot something."

He walks over to the other side of my room

(Yes, this is in my bedroom)

He pulls out a bottle of water and brings it to me.

Seriously?!!!! YES I HAVE RAISED THIS BOY!!!!

This was my Saturday night before Mother's Day. 

I'll never, ever forget this night.

Danny was getting Alexander and Olivia to bed during my "retreat" I was informed that this entire thing was Zach's idea. He made all the signs himself, and every detail was his own.

The next day (Mother's Day) we went to church and my amazing weekend was complete with amazing speakers. The spirit is so strong in our life's. I can't believe how blessed I am! 

Liv turns blue...

2011-04-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

In my last post (on monday) I wrote about Liv starting a new formula (soy) She had a soy bottle at 3:00pm. I posted an update around 5:30, just 30 minutes later our adventure began... 

6:00pm she was sitting with us at the table in her high chair. She wasn't eating... I was getting her food prepared for dinner. Out of no where she just started throwing up. Like a fountain, It just kept coming out. It was spilling out onto the floor. Ok, too many details... 

So, we got her cleaned up, changed her clothes, and just a few minutes passed, and she started coughing and throwing up again. This happened 5 times. She seemed to calm down and was smiling and playing, so I decided to give her one of her breathing treatments. Just minutes after the treatment she coughed so hard it made her gag, then she started throwing up this time, except this time was much different. She wasn't taking any breaths. She turned blue, and I ran upstairs with her as fast as I could to get Danny. We were talking to her and bouncing her a little to get her attention. To get her to at least look at us. I think I may have blown in her face. I just wanted her cute little face to look at me and smile. She went from blue to stark white. In shock I said, "Oh good... she's better now." Danny looked at me like I was crazy. His words exactly "Take her to the hospital now!" I got on the phone with the RN at the clinic by our house and after about 5 minutes of questions she advised me to call 911 immediately. 

I was scared to death. The paramedics arrived and the boys were just standing on the front porch mouths wide open... lights flashing in the night right in front of our house. So many times they've seen emergency vehicles, but this was a dream come true for them! This was in arms reach!

The paramedics came in and immediately started checking her out. She looked up and smiled at the one paramedic and her vitals were perfect. Heart, oxygen, pulse, all of numbers were perfect. I was relieved and thinking... "Ok, everyone out, it's time to get the kids to bed..." 

The paramedics suggested for her to be seen by a Dr immediately, just to be sure there wasn't fluid in her lungs from all the throwing up she did. They could see we had the boys and knew a drive to the ER at 8:30pm with the chance of her gagging in the car on the freeway wasn't a good idea. They also wanted to keep an eye on her vitals during the drive. Liv and I loaded up in the ambulance and off we went. 

We were there until 12:30am. Her chest xray came back perfect. Her vitals were perfect the whole time we were there. At this point the only thing that was wrong was... her last meal was at 3pm, she was hungry, and very tired. 

Conclusion: She may have a severe allergy to soy!

Her Dr switched her formula to a hypoallergenic formula called Nutramigen (it stinks, it's nasty and it's the most expensive formula) she isn't a fan of it, but she is slowly accepting it. She's had so much mucous in her chest and crakeling, I'm hoping this new formula will be the answer. If not, then the next step is a pulmonary specialist. They'll take a closer look at her lungs and respiratory. 

Happy to say she's the sweetest, happiest baby ever. Even with this cough. 

They were so excited they got to take a quick peek

Having a stare down with the paramedic

Danny signing abc's to her during x-ray. She wasn't happy here.

Oh what fun!!!

2011-04-25T17:33:00.000-07:00

We had such a wonderful Easter weekend! I put together a little egg hunt for the grand-kids/great grand-kids in the family. It was so cute to see them all running around frantically looking for eggs! I was chasing them with the camera. Here's what I got... (we missed those that couldn't make it.)

Cute little planters Danny and I made. Kids loved them!

My sweet niece Amy. Liv loves her! (I love her too!)

The Gang. (from left) Olivia, Daniel, Zach, Alex, Morgan, Brady, Maddie, Kendall

It was Don's (danny's brother) birthday on Friday, so we did a little happy birthday too.

The Easter bunny wasn't too generous this year. As you can see by the look on Zach's face. It was all about activities. Not so much about the candy. I'm not hip on the whole Easter bunny thing anyway. Can I just break the bad news and get it over with?

{UPDATE ON OLIVIA} 

The cystic fibrosis test came back negative!!! We are very relieved, however... we knew she didn't have it. Just happy to know FOR SURE she doesn't. So, I took her into the Doc today so we could start the process of elimination. She is no longer wheezy, great news! I'm switching her to a soy based formula. Just in case she is allergic to the one she's on. And I'll be giving her 2 breathing treatments everyday (morning and night) for a week. The treatments hopefully help this cough she can't seem to kick. We go back in May 4th. Hopefully there is progress! 

And last but not least...

Happy Anniversary to my sweet family!!!

2 years ago today we were sealed for time and all Eternity in the San Diego Temple. The last 2 years have not only gone by super fast, but they have been the most amazing years of my life. I have learned and grown so much as a mom and wife. Taking our family to the temple was one of the best decisions we ever made.

Life is good!

A few updates

2011-04-21T12:08:00.000-07:00

I've neglected and avoided my blog long enough. First things first... Baby O is now 6 months old! She's growing so fast. I just started feeding her green beans and she loves them! As many of you know Liv has been sick. I've been giving her breathing treatments twice a day (sometimes more) for the past few weeks. We started her on her first breathing treatment when she was 8 weeks old. After 3 chest x-rays, and amoxicillin they aren't able to figure out what's going on. Long story short, we switched Dr's. He's been great so far. He is the type of doctor that wants to get to the bottom of why she's been coughing so much... and for most of her life really. She is scheduled to go in on Friday to have a test done that detects Cystic Fibrosis. I assume this test will turn out negative. Then we begin digging into Asthma. She is just the sweetest little thing. Always happy, starting to laugh at her brothers from across the room as they wrestle around and play. The last 2 days has been the worst for her. Coughing more and tired all the time. The pediatrician is aware of her daily progress and it's very reassuring to be living just 5 minutes from his office. 

We finally made the transfer (for Alex) from crib to bed. He's now on the bottom bunk and is doing pretty good. Meaning: He gets out of bed and comes out of his room 5-6 times during nap and bedtime. I don't mind it too much, because he's just wearing himself out climbing in and out of bed, then eventually he just drops. The boys have been the cutest brothers. They play so great together. Brotherly love is finally starting to kick in! 

Last weekend we spent a day at the beach and it was beautiful! No wind, perfect temperature. Everyone else had the same idea. It was packed! Danny taught Zach how to boogie board. He's a pro! I know he'll get bored soon, and it will be time to get him into surf school... Trying to prepare myself for that one. 

Lately I've been so emotional when I look at my kids. They really are the most precious things. I can't even function with the thought of them being sick or hurt. My kids and Danny mean the absolute  world to me and I would do everything in my power to protect them. The love and support we get every day from our friends and family has been a huge blessing. I'm so grateful for all the love.

The quality on this photo is bad but I had to share.
How sweet are they?

Loving the smiles!

2011-03-29T15:18:00.000-07:00

"We're not in Kansas anymore" Remember this famous line from the Wizard of Oz? We (Danny and I) say this a lot. Of course we both know Kansas means Utah. 

Whenever we go anywhere it doesn't matter where. Me with 3 kids or on the weekends all 5 of us. So many people just look at me (or us) in shock! I call this the "shock factor" I get it DAILY!!! The shock factor includes one or more people staring with their mouth wide open. Like... what?! 

I caught on quick! I guess I don't look like I'm old enough to have 3 kids. I will be 30 in July (July 30th to be EXACT) and things happen a lot differently in California. People don't usually get married until mid thirty's and sometimes they'll have 1 kid by the time they've hit late 30's. And it's a BIG deal if that same type of person has 2 kids! 

Get it? So, for a cute young mom (like myself!) The shock factor happens where ever I go and I actually love it. I'm a minority. I don't mix in with everyone else like I did in Utah. Don't get me wrong, there are plenty of kids here, just not as many and they aren't everywhere. When I pass other mom's in the grocery store we both smile and actually stop and have a conversation about our kids... ages, schools, personalities, how much they weighed at birth... you name it. We will talk about it. Complete strangers in the beginning. Friends by the time we're done talking. 

UTAH: A cute young hip mom will most likely check out what you're wearing. Decide if you're cool enough or not to get a smile. (sorry... but it's true. I have EXPERIENCED THIS!!!!) I don't get why it was (or is) this way. It was very intimidating for me.

I spent the morning at the mall with Alexander and Olivia. We were all awake by 6:00am, so we had a very early start to another blessed day! Walked Zachary to school, then came home to load the babes in the car. Picked up dry cleaning, stopped at the bank, and made it to the mall before the stores opened. Everyone that passed me today smiled. And about 50% of those people that smiled.... stopped to talk to us. It was so fun for me. And then I realized. This is why I've had SO MUCH FUN living here! This happens everyday. Everywhere I go! I love it. I'm not one that loves a lot of "public attention" But this is fun. The people here love KIDS! And they love other people. They aren't afraid to show it.

Are people happier here? Are people more willing to show their love to complete strangers here? 

I'm really pondering this. It's definetly changed me. I love the public. Where as before (before we moved) I didn't really care to go out much. Everyone felt stuffy. Or was I stuffy? 

Hmmmm. Interesting.

taking a train ride at the mall

What fun we had!

2011-03-27T21:58:00.000-07:00

Danny is finally feeling back to normal after his little (private parts) procedure. Hallelujah. I'm not gonna lie. It was rough not having an extra hand to tag team the 3. He couldn't lift anything over 10 lbs. In other words, he couldn't lift anything period. Kids included. How in the crap do these single mom's do it? I will never know. So, since he was back in the game, I decided it was time to treat Zachary to a little date night. We left after I cooked an amazing dinner which included; BBQ boneless spare ribs (cooked in the crock-pot for 6 hours) Roasted mini potatoes tossed with rosemary and garlic, baby carrots cooked to perfection and tossed in brown sugar. It was a hit. The boys cleaned off their plates!

Ok, so after dinner, Z and I went to see Rango. Such a fun movie! He was laughing so much. Between all the popcorn, root-beer, and twizlers... he crashed hard once we got home. What a fun night! I can't believe how big he is. I love him to pieces. I definitely cherish the one on one time with him. 

Saturday we wanted to do something fun as a family. We live in the perfect place for that right? Let's see... Legoland, Sea World, Zoo, Disneyland,  Too many people. Too much walking (for danny right now) So, we decided on the Birch Aquarium in La Jolla. It was a lot of fun! It's not too big, it's just a perfect and simple 1-2 hour outing. All 3 kids loved it! Even baby O. I carried her through the aquarium and she was looking around at all the beautiful fish in the tanks. I of course was in shock that she is old enough to notice this stuff. After we looked and touched some different types of fish, we went to lunch in Pacific Beach. Not an ideal family setting, but it was a fun little Mexican restaurant with lots of noise and a lot going on. Exactly what we needed with the three. 

Then to top off a great family day, Danny and I left the kids with our sweet babysitter Amy and went on a much needed date! Dinner and a movie.  

Sunday morning bright and early (5:30am) I was having a dream of someone screaming. Only to find it was real. It was very LOUD and very URGENT and there was A LOT of PANIC. It was Zachary. Poor little guy. I'll spare you the gruesome details (at least he made it to the bathroom) Seems as though he has a little stomach flu. He was up for the day, and shortly after so was everyone else. He truly had a day of rest, and hand washing, and lots of Gatorade. And Liv still has a cough. We're going on 10 days now. I've been giving her breathing treatments in the morning and at night before bed. We stayed in all day. No church. Just lots of inside games and toys. 

We had all three in bed by 7:30pm. Anyone with kids knows what a huge accomplishment this is. And our day of rest begins now. Life is good!!!

Paranoid or being safe?

2011-03-22T17:02:00.000-07:00

For me there's a very thin line between these two words; Paranoid and Safe. Ever since the devastation in Japan I realized just how unprepared we are. I'm very prepared in the fashion world.... and that's what concerned me. I haven't put a single effort into emergency preparedness. I am always eager and willing to take the time to go shopping for new clothes, shoes, bags etc. Or have my hair done, and even a nice relaxing pedicure. Then this huge earthquake happened and I found myself awake at night not sleeping because I didn't have one single thing in place for the ones I LOVE and ADORE the most!!! Huge eye opener for me.

So, today was the day. I woke up early, showered and off I went with my 2 year old and 5 month old. I did a little research a few days ago. Here is the list I used: 72 hour kit You can download the list into a pdf format, then print it off.

I ended up at Target. However I think Wal-mart, the Dollar Store, and Big 5 sports are great places to go too. I actually still need a few odds and ends.

To our kits I included a can of formula and box of rice cereal for Olivia. I'll just cycle through every couple of months to make sure the diapers I have included still fit her.

I put all of my stuff and the kids stuff in one big duffel bag. The duffel bag we already had has wheels on it for easy transportation. Then I packed a backpack with all of Danny's stuff in it. Don't forget good walking shoes and extra clothes for all.

Feeling much better knowing this is done. I might sleep now!

This is just some of the goods.

A few things...

2011-03-13T21:28:00.000-07:00

It's been a busy few weeks for us. I'm not really sure why or what went on, but I'm out of breath. How do you mom's do it with more than 3 kids? It's amazing how much attention and love they all need at the exact same time! Danny had a little procedure (vasectomy) done on Thursday, so he's been a little sore and in bed. No lifting anything over 1o lbs. Today is Sunday and I was wondering when my weekend will get here? I'm hoping he starts to feel better soon!

Oh I cut my hair last week. Not a ton, maybe 6 inches. I almost went pixy short, but that seemed a little too drastic right now. It's very fun and fresh. I like. A lot!

Today Danny and I gave a talk in our new ward. This is our 3rd Sunday in our new ward and we gave a talk... a little soon? Maybe. But, it was perfect for us. Exactly what I needed. We were asked to speak on "Bearing False Witness" and tie in "Gossip" So, that made things very interesting for me. It was a wonderful mirror image and I realize just how much Gossip goes on. Not only in the LDS church, but all around us. In our families, with our best friends, ect.

One of my biggest fears in life is to speak in front of a lot of people. I'm not really sure why. I just get soooooo nervous. All in all I feel very confident with how I delivered this wonderful message. Everyone kept coming up to us saying "Thank You, It was great!"

Today after church I got both babies (alex and liv) to sleep and Danny was resting, so Zachary and I went on a bike ride. As we were riding around this darling neighborhood we live in I was just soaking it all in. I can not even say it enough. I am SO BLESSED!!!! We live in one of the most beautiful places and this neighborhood is seriously a dream. Brand new parks, and trails everywhere. New little league field that is just to die for. I get to walk Zach to and from school every day. Around the corner and up a street is the sweetest little shopping center; Bed bath & Beyond, World Market, Ralphs (grocery) Jimbo's (health food market) The library, Jamba Juice, lots of yummy places to eat... (greek, mexican, Italian, chinesse, sushi) And don't forget the Farmer's Market every Thursday from 2-7. I'm not kidding when I say around the corner and up the street. We could ride our bikes there. It's a dream. We plan to stay in the area for a very long time. I never want to leave!

So, back to being SO BLESSED!!!! I am so grateful for my beautiful life with such a loving man. We have endured so much in the 8 years we've been married. Really... the trials Danny and I have overcome just makes my heart smile. I am THE luckiest girl ever. As we gave our talks today I felt such a strong spirit. I felt so calm and content. I am grateful for all the trials I went through to get me where I am today. My past has molded me into who I am right now. I love where I am. I love my life. Today I stand in deep gratitude for everything I have experienced.

Where have I been?

2011-02-18T15:17:00.001-08:00

I'm not sure what my deal is, but lately I've had no desire to blog. Not really sure why. I guess it could be that I'm doing all I can to keep up with these 3 darling babies of mine and by the time they go to sleep I'm in such a daze that I fall asleep around 9:30. On occasion the Mr and I have a date on the couch to watch one of our favorite shows with a large bowl of popcorn or maybe some humus and crackers. Depends on the night and what we're craving. Wow... I just went completely off subject. The point is this... laundry, cooking 3 meals a day, cleaning up after each meal, changing (alex and o's) diaper in between and feeding Olivia a bottle, pick up Z from school, run around at the park, maybe stop off at the putting green that's next to our house.... Who has time to blog after all that? Are people reading this blog? Or is it just for me to have, as an online journal. Maybe one day I'll find one of those companies that makes your blog into a book and I'll print it out and have it sitting on the coffee table to open up and read every once in a while...

I know Zach looks at it regularly. I'm pretty sure Danny is on his computer designing and working all day, the last thing he is going to do is read our "family blog" I do have this darling sweet friend that reads regularly. She's actually the only one that leaves comments! Ya, you know who you are! Not really sure my own mom even reads it... and I'm certain my brother or sister don't look at it.

Here are some cute pictures of Zachary's 6th birthday party. Cake and ice cream at our house first, then all the kids rode their bikes to the park just around the corner from our house. Then back to our house for presents, then parent's picked up their dear ones. The kids had a blast!

So, to blog or not to blog. That is the question.

Birthday breakfast before school on Feb 1st.

Pit stop to make sure everyone was keeping up

Heading home!

Fun day!

Happy Birthday Zachary!!!

2011-02-01T09:56:00.000-08:00

6 years ago.... where has the time gone? I thought I knew everything about love, until he came into this world! One of Zach's favorite things to do is look at our blog, so this is for him!

Things we LOVE about Zach...

How loving and sweet he is to everyone.
His energetic personality.
His curiosity about the way things work.
His ability to make anyone and everyone smile.
His curiosity for wheels.
His love for school and learning.
How tidy he is.
His imagination.
How helpful he is with his little brother and sister.
How excited he gets for the weekends.
His smile.
His contagious laugh.
His love for cooking.
His interest in trying new foods.
How excited he gets to ride in the 3rd row of the van.
How well he shares with Alexander.
How happy he is every morning he wakes up.
His love for life.
His love for all of us.
How forgiving he is.
How much he loves "boom boom pow" (black eyed peas)
His hilarious break dance moves.
How much he loves to take baths.
His love for every vegetable.
How excited he gets when I buy Artichokes.
How much he kisses his little sister.
How well he makes new friends.
How much joy he brings to us every day.

Happy Birthday Z. We love you so much!

Ready. Set. Go.

2011-01-21T08:25:00.001-08:00

Ok my dear family, friends and loved ones. Today is take 2 on moving. Many of you are saying... "didn't you just move??" Yes. Yes we did. We moved into this house 6 months ago and it's been a bitter sweet, love hate relationship every since. It was a perfect stepping stone for our family. Now we're moving to an area that focuses more on families and kids. With 3 small kids this is going to be perfect for us! It's a darling (new) community. Parks, trails, schools, endless sidewalks for the boys to ride. 15 minutes to the beach. Not to mention a 10 minute commute for Danny! For a stay at home mom: Heaven.

So, I'm off to pick up the keys, then we have some light painting to do in Olivia's room. Tomorrow morning bright and early the movers will be here to load everything up! As much as Danny and I hate moving we have both been counting down the days and it's finally here!

Computer is going in the box. Next time I blog I'll be sitting in our cozy little office situated just off the entry of our new home! Can you sense my excitment?!! Ready and GO!!!!

A very Merry Christmas and a New Year!

2011-01-04T08:08:00.000-08:00

Christmas Eve

Can't believe how long it's been since my last post. I hate waiting this long in between posts! So, Christmas was wonderful of course. Santa ended up stopping at our house, so all were happy about that. The boys inherited more trucks, and kitchen items. They both love anything with wheels and lately the new obsession has been cooking. I'm amazed at the kitchen appliances they have out for kids nowadays. Lots of plastic and wood meals have been prepared and cooked with the new kitchen appliances.

2011 is here! I wouldn't say we're off to good start with the new year. New years night we ended up in the after hour clinic with both Alexander and Olivia. She was tested for whooping cough and Alexander had to have a breathing treatment because he wasn't getting enough oxygen. Uhhhhhhhhhhh. Nothing worse than sick little kids. So, we left the clinic with an inhaler and medicine for Alex, and an antibiotic for Olivia. And there is still more...

Alexander has had a cough for 2 months. I've had him in and out of the pediatrician trying to figure out why and what is going on. Olivia started her cough about a week ago. So, when one is getting checked, so is the other. We were just in with the Dr last Thursday before the new year.
It got bad and we ended up in the after hour clinic.... While at the clinic they were very surprise that Olivia hadn't been tested for whooping cough. We were then told that it's part of their guidelines to test and treat any baby under 3 months of age. It takes 3 days to get the results back, so they treat the baby. The reason they do this is because a baby that small can not fight off the whooping cough and if it's not treated asap, she might not survive. If you're a mom you must know how upset I was to hear that our pediatrician didn't follow this specific guideline with Olivia.

So, yesterday morning (monday) Alexander was wheezing again and Olivia was still coughing pretty bad. We ended up back into the Dr. this time with a different pediatrician. We ended up getting a chest and sinus x-ray for Alex. Olivia was diagnosed with Bronchialitis. Not Bronchitis. Bronchialitis. She now has an inhaler also!

Alexander has Pneumonia. Which doesn't surprise me one bit. He's had a horrible cough for 2 months, and 2 full days of wheezing. He should have had a chest x-ray done a LONG time ago. The Doc couldn't tell us how long he's had it. So who knows. He's on 2 antibiotics and an inhaler.
My poor babies. That is all I can say.

Our agenda for the next 2-3 weeks:

Wake up
Stay in pajama's
Make and eat yummy breakfast
Disperse all medication and inhalers to the babies
Give Zachary lots of loves (he's begging for attention right now)
Send Zach to school
Naps
More medicine and inhalers
Make and eat yummy lunch
Movies, cartoons, books
Snuggle time
Naps
Inhalers
Zach comes home from school
Me and babies are still in Pajama's
Danny comes home
Make and eat yummy dinner
Snuggle and play with Dad
Vapor bath for babies
Clean pajama's
(not the ones we've been hanging out in all day!)
Snacks
Brush teeth
Read books
Go to bed
*REPEAT*

This just about sums it up for us.

One last little (HUGE) detail. We're moving in 3 weeks! We found a darling house in an area we love. It's in 4S Ranch. South from where we live now. It's about 15 minutes from Del Mar. Zachary will be able to walk or ride his bike to school. This community is adorable! Parks, big green open fields for running and playing. Brand new homes and shopping. We can't wait!!! So, in between the naps I've been packing!

I'm in shock I had a moment to spare to update my blog. Lucky for me everyone slept in this morning, so laundry and blog got done today. I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year. This year is definitely going to get better for us!

Family of 5...

2010-12-11T05:23:00.000-08:00

A fun photo shoot we had done by our good friend/photographer
Nathan Petty in Del Mar. The weather was perfect. It was such a clear, beautiful day. The boys held still for a couple of good family shots, but after that they were off running around like crazy! Danny and I still can't believe we're a family of 5. We are so blessed!

A beautiful sunset to end such a wonderful day!
Thanks again Nathan!!

Snow vs. Palm...

2010-12-05T11:34:00.000-08:00

Palm Wins!

December 5th, 2010... 68 degrees outside. Been this way the whole week and my husband tells me this is kind of how the winters go in San Diego. Is there a way I can order snow for December 25th? Sorry sweetie, I know this is your birthday and I'm pretty sure you aren't asking for snow on your birthday, but Christmas might be a little weird for me without snow!

I've had snow for 29 years of my life. This is going to take some getting used to...

So, the Christmas tree and decor has been up in our house before Thanksgiving. I know, I know. I'm actually one of those that used to make fun of people that decorated for Christmas before Thanksgiving was even here, but I'm telling you... with sunny blue sky's everyday I had to do something to get into the Christmas spirit! Last night we went to Del Mar and drove through the festival of lights at the Del Mar fairgrounds. It definitely helped us all get into the Christmas spirit. The kids loved it! When we lived in Utah... every year we drove the the lights at Thanksgiving Point, so we've made this a tradition to do every year. Next tradition... Go see Santa at the mall! I have a feeling Alexander isn't going to like this too much. I'll let you know how that goes!

Sweet little blessings...

2010-11-22T13:16:00.000-08:00

Today has been a perfect day for me to blog about the blessings in my life...

I haven't had sleep in months. I was sick for a solid week when Olivia was about 2 weeks old, then got better and now I'm sick again!
Alexander has what I have or I got it from him... who knows...
Zachary was up at 1am this morning throwing up.
While Danny was cleaning up puke, I was up feeding Olivia
(I was up with her every 2 hours)
We got everyone to sleep at around 5am and Alexander woke up the entire house at 6:30am. Around 8am this morning I felt like crawling under a rock. One that would most likely smash me to death or leave me no breathing room.

I put Alexander down for a nap about an hour ago and was hoping to lay down to nap myself, then Olivia was due to eat again... So I fed her while pumping Zachary full of Gatorade. I sat silently praying I don't get baby O sick as I hack and cough all over the place.

So... there you have it.

Then I found a couple of free seconds after O was done eating/burping/hiccups/ect. to upload some photos from yesterday. Olivia was blessed yesterday and when I looked at this picture I felt horrible. I'm sure most mom's have times like these where you feel like... Wow, what a selfish person I've been.

It hit me. And it hit me hard.

Heavenly Father blessed me with 3 of the most beautiful, healthy, happy, energetic, smart, uplifting little spirits ever. He trusted ME to care for these 3. Not to mention the Man behind it all. Danny. We crossed paths at a friends house 8 years ago and my life has never been the same ever since. He is my best friend. An amazing husband, and father. I feel safest when he's right next to me. Seriously. I have all of this? Yes, yes I do. And it's mine forever... eternity actually.

Alexander is awake and screaming now... so, the afternoon begins. I would be lying if I said I wasn't watching the clock and counting down the minutes before my dear husband comes home to take care of his sick little family...

Olivia May

2010-11-12T13:00:00.000-08:00

2 days from now (Sunday) Ms. Olivia will be a month old! I can't even believe it. I can say now that boys are definitely different than girls and when the boys get around her... they are different! We are forever changed. She has us all wrapped around her finger. The boys just adore her and it's the sweetest thing you can ever imagine.

As for all the little doctor appointments she had that I explained in my last post... all of them turned out great! The birth mark on her lower back is not attached to her spine at all. The doctor that performed the ultrasound was wonderful! And Olivia did great during that whole thing. We met the Cardiologist on Nov. 8th and that was good news too! She doesn't have a hole in her heart, but she does have a slight heart murmur. They say it will work itself out... she will grow out of it. However, they will be checking it to be sure. She goes back into the Cardiologist in 6 months.

We are so blessed. I am so blessed. I've always dreamed of having a little girl and as I look at her (which is ALL the time) I can't believe she's mine. She's amazing!

A princess is born!

2010-10-27T21:48:00.000-07:00

Olivia May was born on October 14th at 5:23 pm. 7 pounds 6 ounces and 18 inches long. She has been the sweetest little addition to our family!

Livy is now 13 days old and growing like a little weed. Yesterday she weighed in at 8 pounds! The boys can't get enough of her. They just love and adore her so much! Alexander is still wondering where she came from and when she plans to leave! Zachary runs to her every time she lets out a squeak or cry! I love to hold her. Can't seem to find a place to lay her down... hehehe. And Danny, well she had him wrapped around her little finger the moment she was born. I guess you could say we're all obsessed with her!

Olivia was born with a birth mark on her spine on the lower back. Her pediatrician told us right after she was born that she wanted to follow up on it to be sure it's not connected to the spine in any way. Tomorrow (10.28.10) Livy has an ultrasound scheduled so we can get a closer look at things. We should know the results by Friday.

She had her week check up yesterday with her pediatrician. I found it a little ironic how much time the Doctor spent listening to her heart beat. I had Alexander with me and he was dead silent. Bizarre for him I must say. The entire room was silent. After she was done she told me that Livy has a heart murmur! She had a 2nd pediatrician come into the room to listen just to be sure, and the 2nd Doc said, "Yes... send her to the Cardiologist."

We see the Cardiologist at the Children's Hospital to get more details how severe this is. Danny and David (Danny's brother) gave her a special blessing last night. We trust that Heavenly Father is watching over her and our family as we go through this.

DELIVERY DETAILS:

I was hoping to do a v-bac (vaginal birth after c-section), but chickened out at last minute. Alexander was born c-section and that was only 20 months ago. I was scared to death that my scar would tear during delivery which could cause the uterus to rupture. They say it's a 1-2% chance, but honestly... have you seen my bill of health?? I'm queen of the 1-2%. We weren't taking any chances!!! So, Danny and I both decided c-section would be the best.

I've recovered much faster this time around. Other than one small thing... Remember that 1-2% I was just referring to? Right before the surgery they gave me a spinal. Instead of an epidural they do a spinal. They were testing to see if I was numb before they started the procedure. I felt them poking my belly, so they gave me another spinal. In doing so, they nicked one of my nerves and I haven't had full feeling back in my left foot since the baby was born. The Anesthesiologist has called me every other day since the surgery to check up on me and see if I have feeling in my foot yet. He and my obgyn seem to think it will take a few weeks or maybe months before it's normal again. If not, then I'll be on my way to a neurologist. All I can say is... Seriously???

Shame on me for not getting this entry up sooner.
Life all of sudden got extremely busy!

Unplanned beach trip

2010-10-10T12:31:00.000-07:00

A quick update on doctor stuff and baby. Nothing to report at all. This makes me sad yes. At my appointment on the 6th nothing had changed. Cervix the same. And not effaced anymore. So... we sit idle. Frustrating! We all want to meet this little girl so bad!!!

Yesterday (Saturday) we went to La Jolla to do some walking. We had a nice lunch with the boys and decided to stop at the beach for a couple hours. Before we left the house I threw the beach bag in the car complete with toys, sunscreen, towels. Just in case we wanted to play at the beach. I also packed a small cooler knowing all the walking I was planning on doing! Living in San Diego I've learned to always keep swim trunks and a change of clothes in the car at all times. Just in case days like this arise. We were plenty prepared! Alexander loves the water. He's such a dare devil and is always running out to it. When the waves come his direction though... he doesn't want to get wet, so he'll start running away so fast! So funny. It was a perfect October day in La Jolla.

This little boy in the background was eating sand by the handfuls. Alex was scared of him! He's running away.

Getting his own drink. Unzipped it and...

Done. Sipper cup in hand. Mission accomplished.

We turned our heads for a second and Alex was gone! He liked this guys set up better than ours.

We got home, had dinner, and took another little walk. This is from our driveway.
A perfect way to end a beautiful day!

And so it begins...

2010-10-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

The beginning of not really knowing if I am truly in labor or not! I think this is the worst time of pregnancy. At the very end. Lots of strong contractions, and other things happening that would trick any mom no matter how many pregnancies she's had that she could be in labor!

The day I posted my last post (October 1st) I was having very strong contractions every 4 minutes apart for about an hour 1/2. We were close to the hospital, and thought... this might be it! Wrong. I was only dilated to 2.5 cm and only 50% effaced. They monitored me and sent me out walking around the hospital for 2 hours. I started walking at 8pm and returned at 10pm. Only on hospital grounds... and we had the boys with us! What a joyous experience! Danny ended up taking them to the car, put them in their pajama's and got them all cozy with a fun movie for them to watch. As I made my way back in to get checked again I said a silent prayer that I would be far enough dilated that they wouldn't send me home. To my surprise... I hadn't changed at all!
Not even .5 cm. I was still at a 2.5.

I couldn't believe it. As I was walking I had to stop and concentrate on my breathing because the contractions were so hard. I couldn't even talk. So, we drove home. Went the whole weekend with nothing but the normal contractions... about 5-6 an hour.

Tomorrow (Wednesday) I see my doc and we're all praying I've moved along at least a little bit. This is the same week I gave birth to Alexander, so my OB thought for sure I would've gone into labor by now, or anytime now.

For now, here are some belly shots. And I'll keep you posted after my appointment.

20 weeks

26 weeks

28 weeks

32 weeks

35 weeks

36 weeks

This is the month!

2010-10-01T09:12:00.000-07:00

October is here today, right now! We are all anxiously awaiting the arrival of this sweet princess. I've been feeling really good and embracing this pregnancy as I know it will be my last. However... I'm over it! I'm ready for her to come. My swollen ankles and feet are now sloshing when I walk. She loves to hang out on my sciatic nerve. Packing around 35 lb Alexander up and down 2 flights of stairs has been a bit of a challenge. (I take 2 Tylenol every night for the back pain!) Lets just be honest. Pregnancy and the very thought that the human body can create another human body is absolutely amazing! And I think a miracle.

With miracles comes a little pain!

As I said before I'm embracing this. I can do this. Just a little bit longer...

I'm dilated to 2 cm, so I believe she will be early. I was having Alexander right now at 36 weeks, so it could be any time now. Maybe next week?

Stay tuned for pictures. I have a few of the latest belly shots I'll upload this weekend.

What makes you happy?

2010-09-04T19:59:00.000-07:00

Zachary has just completed his first 10 days of Kindergarten and he loves it! He was asked in class during one of their lessons... "What makes you happy?" His reply... "Running through the sprinklers" So there you have it!

What if we all had this same feeling about life? Nothing else matters... just running through the sprinklers? I challenge each one of you that is reading this blog to answer this same question. Post it as a comment.
Just one thing... What makes you happy?

This beautiful family my amazing husband and I have created makes me happy. These darling boys in my life. Every second spent with them is my happiness. I love them so much and can not imagine what life would even look like without them.

Speaking of creating... I'm 32 weeks along now! We get to meet this beautiful little princess very soon. We are all very excited! Zachary has told me every morning for the past week that she's ready to come out and my belly is SO big that I should just go to the hospital so the doctor can take her out. I'm pretty sure we don't want her this soon... we would like to take her home from the hospital and not have to leave her there. I made sure I explained that to him.

Settled in...

2010-08-20T13:34:00.000-07:00

I'm very happy to say we're establishing somewhat of a routine again! This summer has been an interesting and fun one. Moving is quiet a challenge. And moving out of state is even more of a challenge. Especially when your husband decides to play on the freeway in the middle of our move! Oh yes 2 small busy boys and being pregnant has just made it that much more fun.
(Sarcastically speaking of course!)

We've been in the house for a few weeks now and here is what we've learned.

*We do not like vaulted ceilings. (everything echos... not fun!)
*We will never live on a busy road or on the corner again.
*Ants, Ants, Ants (everywhere!!) I forget about the beloved ants in California.
*No carpet in this house. All tile and wood. We miss CARPET!
*Not a fan of a 2 story house. Up and down the stairs... (baby might be early)
*Happy that we only signed a 6 month contract.
*We hate moving, but will be moving again in 6 months.

So there you have it. A little complaining, yes. 100% honest... YES!

We can smile and say... "oh it's just great and we absolutely LOVE it" But it wouldn't be real or authentic. This home is a stepping stone for us and we have a place to be when the baby is born. It's a newer home so that is definitely a plus. However... it really hasn't been taken care of. They are very lucky to have us here to get it into tip top shape again for the next renters! I won't even list the things we've done for this house in the last 3 weeks. I'll save that for another day!

Enough about that. Here are some fun photos. I'll be sure to get pictures up of the house soon. For now, here are a few sneak peaks.

Splashing around at Nana's before we moved out

Resting!

Amazing sunsets from Wayne & Ida's house on Mt. Helix (La Mesa)

Taking a short break while unpacking at the new house

Having sandwich's at the Del Mar horse races!!

Alexander worn out after the races

Pick Pocketing. The economy is tough right now... :)

Mastering the stairs. Lots of STAIRS!

New shoes! He ran and ran for hours!

Finally put the playhouse back together. Happy boys!

Overcast beach day!

On and off this chair about 50 times!

Boys!

And last but definitely not least. The "Mini Van stroller" (Look at how happy they are) I just got this a few days ago. One of the things on the list before baby arrives. Her carrier fits nice and snug in the area that Zach is sitting. It's very long... I'll be swingin wide!

A night we'll never forget...

2010-07-29T10:14:00.000-07:00

I'm pretty sure we will never forget the events that took place last night. And I can honestly say with every bean in my body that I have never cried or been that upset in my entire life.

We had a time scheduled for last night at 7:30pm to get the keys to the house we're moving into. We currently live about an hour away from where the house is, so we thought it would be a good idea to take a load of stuff up to the house since we were making the trek up there to get the keys. We borrowed Don's truck (my brother in law) and got it all loaded up. We also loaded the Lexus with a bunch of boxes too. I drove the Lexus... Danny drove the truck. The kids rode with Danny in the truck. We stopped for dinner at a local restaurant before going up to the house. And when I say local, I mean... we didn't need to get on the freeway to get there!

After dinner I followed Danny onto 8 freeway heading West. If any of you have been on I-8 you know it's a very fast moving freeway. There was a lot of traffic, because it was just after 6:30pm.

Right as we got to freeway speed we came to a curve in the freeway and out come 2 of our wardrobe boxes. All over the freeway. Danny wasn't able to pull off right away due to all the traffic. We both got to the side of the freeway (about 1/4 mile away from the boxes) Danny jumped out of the truck and just took off running up the freeway.

I was in the Lexus... so I ran out and got in the truck with the kids. I then called 911 to let them know what happened and with the traffic being so bad to send someone quick. I knew there would be an accident if it didn't get cleaned up really fast. She stayed on the phone with me for a while and once she found out Danny was heading onto the freeway I heard panic in her voice as she dispatched the highway patrol. Then I got very nervous and thought.... "yes of course... what in the world is he doing out there!!!"

I got out of the truck with cars zooming past at what felt like 90 mph. I was looking up the freeway to see Danny, and just then I see a car spin out of control and hit the cement barrier... Danny was no where to be found. From where I was I couldn't see him at all. Traffic was now at a complete stop behind the car that spun out. My heart dropped and I immediately called Danny's family screaming. 2 ambulances pulled up to the scene with their lights on, and then I couldn't even breath. I had this vision of Danny being hit by a car at freeway speeds or the car that spun out pinned him up against the cement barrier.

I kept going into the truck to check on the boys and they were just sitting in their seat belts hanging out. I was pacing back and forth trying to make sense of what was going on up the freeway from where we were. I'm still a mess and still not breathing!!!

Finally about 10 minutes later the highway patrol and the car that spun out of control came driving up to where I was. Danny and the girl got out of the car and I just ran over and fell apart in his arms. I couldn't believe nobody was hurt. Not one single scratch on either one of them. We got off the next freeway exit where Danny's sister came to get the kids and we were there with 4 patrol man filling out a bunch of reports. Danny was given a long chat by the highway patrol to never run out to try to stop traffic. Danny was so worried about there being a huge pile up that he was on the side waving down traffic to warn them to slow down around the curve. This is when he disappeared from my sight. He went around the bend and I thought he went across to the other side. Just as he disappeared from my sight is exactly when the car spun out. From where I was standing it was a horrible scene.

I'm sure there's a lot of my wardrobe flying around on the 8 west. Oh and maybe a few pairs of shoes. Whatever the case is... My husband is alive and well. I woke up so many times last night just to touch his face. And this sweet girl that walked away with only a wrecked car... Could you imagine being responsible for another persons death? I had so many visions and thoughts last night as I sat on the side of the freeway... 1 hand holding my belly of our unborn child and my legs pacing back and forth to check on my sweet little boys patiently awaiting their
Daddy's return.

I can't begin to explain where I'm at right now. I feel SO incredibly blessed that nobody was hurt or killed last night. Honestly this outcome could have been absolutely devastating. I'm forever humbled over this event. I haven't stopped thanking God for watching over us!

On a side note... Saturday morning is moving day. Please keep us in your prayers!

A little DeBate family update

2010-07-21T15:13:00.000-07:00

And finally our search for a home has come to an end for now! Hallelujah!!! We found a cute little neighborhood in a place called Hidden Meadows. We plan to rent this home for a year or so, until we're ready to buy. We move in at the end of July. I am so looking forward to getting everything moved in and feeling settled. Over the past 5 weeks the boys have adjusted just fine at Nana and Pop Pop's house. I think it's me that's been having a hard time adjusting! You all know how much I love the daily routine. It's been quiet the challenge for me to be without the routine, so I look forward to that!

It's been a month since my last post... I guess that's just how it goes during the summer. Soccer started for Zach and he loves it! We've been getting a lot of use out of our Sea World passes. It's been so fun to go during their summer nights to see night shows and fireworks. The boys love it! Alex just sits there with his mouth wide open! It's so super cute!! Alexander climbs up onto everything now. He will move around objects, so he can use it as a step and climb up onto things like: the couch, coffee table, fireplace, rocking chair. If it's too high... he'll figure out a way to get on top of it!

Yesterday was my first appointment with my new OBgyn. We found out about him through my Brother-in-law Jerry whom is a Physician's Assistant and one of our close friends that has worked with him in labor and delivery. He's a great doctor and we're excited to have him! I can't believe I'm already 26 weeks. 13 weeks and our sweet princess will be here! We've decided to have a schedule c-section this time around. So, October 20, 2010 will be the big day!
10.20.10 A very cool birthday don't ya think?

A day at the beach with cousins!

Look a likes? What do you think?

(above) Alex doesn't look happy (below) I'm not to sure who Zach is yelling at

Some ice cream and a little walk in La Jolla

Alex working on his laptop!

Go Padres!

A few adjustments!

2010-06-22T20:00:00.000-07:00

First and foremost... my last blog shows ONE moving truck at 26 feet long. Penske claims it will move up to an 8 bedroom house. Well, it doesn't! We ran out of room. And we were moving a 5 bedroom house with top of the line guys inside packing in every square inch! So, truck number TWO came into the picture later in the evening. We had one of our close friends (and life savers) drive the truck to San Diego for us while Danny drove the big truck and I drove in the Lexus with the boys. We then flew our friend back to Salt Lake the night we arrived in San Diego. Wow!

So, we have been here a week in the beautiful land of San Diego! We came early to spend time with Danny's parent's before they packed up and went to their cabin for the summer. It was so nice to be with them before they left. The boys are so funny and Ida (Danny's mom) would just laugh at them most of the time! They left last week and we've slowly unpacked a few boxes to get us through the summer. For now everything else is in storage. They have such a beautiful home and we're so grateful we get to live here during the summer while they're away in the mountains!

So, we've had a few set backs just in the first week of our arrival. The home we were planning on living in is no longer available for us. Long story short... the home owners have decided not to move therefore we have been out house hunting. Let me rephrase... We are out Rental House Hunting. There's a big difference there. I would love to go on and on about some of the homes we've been in, but it would just make me cry, so I won't even get started. But just real quick... One of the homes we went to yesterday (Danny went in. I stayed OUTSIDE!!!!) I'm pretty sure it was a meth house. Danny smelled horrible when he came out. We joked around about it... I told him to get out and walk home (due to the smoke/drug smell) Once the laughter subsided I cried the whole drive back to his parent's house! 21 weeks pregnant+homeless= Very emotional!

We're trying to stay positive, but find ourselves overwhelmed at times. We were so set on moving into this other home, so it's been a very interesting turn on our whole move. Danny and I both knew we would definitely be down grading from our house in Utah when we moved to San Diego, but really if you could just see what we've seen. You wouldn't believe it.

Right now I'm looking around at this amazing place and our beautiful little family and am so grateful for our great health and the love and support from Danny's family. Sweet baby girl is moving so much in my belly, and at night I hold my belly and think "Wow! I couldn't be any more blessed right now." I know we'll find our next home. Not sure when, but I know it will all work out. For now I'm breathing and doing all I can to get some rest at night!

Farewell to what we called home for 5 years.

Today is THE day!!!

2010-06-12T08:38:00.000-07:00

Ok, that's a big truck! Danny is on his way to this house right now with that thing. Does he need a license to drive that?

I can't believe the time has come. We've been preparing for this day for about 2 months now. I honestly can't wait until this move over! Moving is very painful. We've gotten rid of so much stuff that we didn't need... and still... it's painful! Danny is on his way to pick up the 26 foot big yellow truck. We're spending the night here (on the floor) then leaving early in the morning. We will stay in Las Vegas, then get to San Diego on Monday afternoon. This will be a long trip!

This week we've been going non stop until about 1:00am. Then up early with the kids. Awwww I'm day dreaming about next week... where I plan to relax with the boys on the beach!

But right now it's time to get to WORK! I need to pack up my computer and say goodbye to the place we've called home for the last 5 years. And my little blogging nook that sits in our Master bedroom...

I'll write more when we arrive and get settled in.

Random stuff...

2010-05-25T22:55:00.000-07:00

Zachary was the man of the house for a couple of days while Danny took a quick trip to San Diego. He didn't want me to be alone at night, so he asked me sweetly if he could sleep in Danny's spot! So sweet. I just love to see him sleeping.

Remember my last post? "The sun is here..." I regret to tell you. I spoke entirely way too soon! When we woke up on Monday May 24th we find this out the window! The weather man (whom isn't my bestest friend) made this comment "This is the latest snow fall Utah has seen..." I have a theory. Each year the snow fall is going to be later and later. Therefore in the next 5 years (or so) there will be snow falling in the middle of July and in about 10 years (or so) summer will not exist. The sun will be replaced with snow. Pretty good theory huh?!

It came down pretty hard throughout the day, but melted pretty fast. It was gone by the time we went to bed. I was actually smiling and laughing as the snow was falling (at the end of May) because I was doing this....

Packing up the house! I've been packing a lot over the past month. The stack of boxes in the garage is growing and growing. I'm only packing... not lifting. My belly is getting so big and I'm paranoid to do anything to jeopardize this pregnancy! So I'm being very careful :)

Danny took this beautiful photo from the sky on his way home from San Diego. These clouds look so inviting. I would love to curl up a take a little nap
right in the middle!

That's enough randomness for now... As for us, we're all doing great! Zachary is officially a graduate of preschool and is out for the summer. Kindergarten will start at his new school in SD. Alexander loves to bite. He will bite me more than anyone else... hope that stops soon! Danny and I are getting things prepared for the big move. Baby girl is growing and doing great in my belly! We're pretty sure we have her name picked out and will let you know soon.
Life couldn't be better!

The sun is here!

2010-05-16T16:13:00.000-07:00

First and foremost it's Danny's Dad's Birthday today. Happy Birthday Wayne! Also, this is the day that Danny proposed to me 7 years ago. Our wedding was August 7th 2003. I can't believe how much we've been through in 7 years! I love and adore my sweet Danny so much.

Lots of fun stuff the last couple of weeks. It's starting to look and feel like spring around here! We've been getting the house packed and boxes are quickly starting to stack up in the garage. We are all getting very excited about this move!

So, here's some stuff we've been doing. For Mother's Day I took my Mama to the Tulip Festival at Thanksgiving Point. It was such a perfect day! Not a lot of wind... just a little breeze and a lot of sun and no clouds. We started out at the Trelis Cafe on the patio and enjoyed a little lunch, then walked through the tulips! The kids were great and my Dad was good too! He's usually very antsy and in his words exactly... "has shit to do" so, it was great to have him with us for a few hours! Some photos of our adventure...

My belly is growing so fast!

The driver...

My Dad and Mama

My sweet boys!

Holding the belly

Last weekend we spent a day at Sugar House park. It was a fun outing. A great place to go people watch! We took some treats and drinks and the Frisbee. Zach is getting very good at the Frisbee! Alexander just ran around on the rolling hills of grass. There's a huge pond with tons for seagulls and a few ducks and geese. We took some bread and the kids loved feeding them.

We saw this dog and couldn't believe how big he was. He didn't even touch that bread in Zach's hand. It made me very nervous. I was so scared he was going to take the bread and Zach's hand. He was very well behaved.
Who needs a dog this big?

IT'S A GIRL!!!!

2010-04-30T16:02:00.000-07:00

Ok, we were so anxious and excited to find out the sex of the baby we knew we couldn't wait until May 17th to find out! Yes you heard that right. WE as in Danny and I. He was just as much excited as I was! So, we decided to go to the 3D ultrasound place in the mall to get a "Gender Determination" ultrasound and the Doctor that performed the ultrasound said he is 200% sure that this is a GIRL! I am 14 weeks along right now and I've been hearing numerous rumors that ultrasounds done this early are most likely not right. Therefore baby girl will grow a wiener in between now and my 16 week or 20 week appointment. I say NO WAY to that!!! I have 2 boys of my own and with them had these same gender ultrasound pics. On theirs it is clear as day there are little boy parts down there. Not this one. She is definitely a SHE!

Danny is so excited to be the daddy to a sweet little girl and of course I am ecstatic!!! Zachary smiled so big when he saw the baby on the screen and smiled ear to ear when we heard it was a girl! His exact words "I'm going to have a little SISTER!" It was pretty much the cutest thing I've heard. He is so sweet! He's going to be such a sweet big brother to his little sister!

Alexander. He may be young, but don't let that fool you! He knows exactly what's going on. He saw my belly one morning in the bathroom room and he pointed at it. I knelt down so he could touch it. He touched it with his entire hand and smiled SO big. As if he was saying "I know who is in there and I can't wait to see her again!" They will be 20 months apart when the baby is born. It will be a crazy and fun few years for us! Due date is around October 28th. I will be having a scheduled c-section in San Diego where we will be living in our new home!

Look close. This is in between her legs looking through. In the background you can see her forehead (the white line up towards the top) and a nose and her little eyes. It's a super close up of the "in between" part of her legs. No boy parts here!

At the end she put her hand up to her mouth. So precious she is!
Now... we just get to agree on a name! Any suggestions?

A year ago today...

2010-04-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

This exact day last year our sweet little family was sealed for Eternity in the San Diego Temple! It's amazing how fast just a year goes by. We've realized that we get to work on serving in the Temple more. We will always remember this date and the family and friends that were with us on this beautiful day. We are so grateful for the love and support we continue to receive from our family and friends! Love you guys so much.

"These temples, which we have greatly multiplied in recent years, offer blessings that are had nowhere else. All that occurs in these sacred houses has to do with the eternal nature of man. Here, husbands and wives and children are sealed together as families for all eternity. Marriage is not "until death do ye part." It is forever, if the parties live worthy of the blessing. Most remarkable of all is the authority to do vicarious work in the house of the Lord. Here, ordinances are performed in behalf of the dead who did not have opportunity to receive them while in life."

-President Gordon B. Hinckley (October 2007 Conference)

Please forgive me for neglecting you!

2010-04-22T18:10:00.000-07:00

It really hasn't been that long since my last blog has it? Oops...

Last week I had an awesome opportunity to staff Womens Training at The Great Life. I went through Women's last fall. My mom wasn't able to go due to a schedule conflict, so this spring she was there! It was so great having her in there with me on staff! Click here... This tells a little about Women's.
What a beautiful, uplifting experience this was.
I'll cherish this time I got to spend with my mom forever.

Due to me being on staff for Women's training Danny had the kids for 3 full days. So, I decided to take a little trip to St. George with my mom and the kids, so he could get caught up on work! We actually just got home today. We left Monday and our intentions were to stay until Friday, however the weather wasn't good, so we made the decision to come home a day early. I was hoping that Danny could get some work done, but he got strep throat instead. Not fun. I guess in a round about way it was a great time for me to be gone with the boys, because he had the ability to rest without them jumping on him.
Of course he didn't rest... he worked.

I have a horrible thing to confess... The first 2 days we were in St. George. Which were the really sunny, hot days. The days we swam a lot in the pool and the days I was able to show off my darling little pregnant belly very proud... I didn't have my camera with me. I didn't realize it until the night before we left. I was very sad (still am) that I only got a few pictures. Boo me for not taking enough pictures during this trip :(

Oh YES... AND the day we left for St. George (Monday morning) I had a doctors appointment. We heard Babies heartbeat again and it was PERFECT! 160 beats/minute. Just fabulous! The first time we went in was 4 weeks ago. I had an ultrasound and heard the heartbeat. Zachary was with me and he was so cute... He smiled so big and said "Look at the little peanut inside you!" Everything with the baby is going great which in my eyes is another miracle! I can't believe how amazing the human body is. After all this body has been through it just continues to amaze me!

The next ultrasound is set for May 17th. We get to find out if it's a HE or SHE!!! Oh my goodness... I get to stay very busy for the next 4 weeks! I can't WAIT for that appointment!!!!

The Easter Bunny arrived... on his sleigh

2010-04-06T20:01:00.000-07:00

If you're from Utah you know it snowed (a lot) on Easter Eve. Well, this Easter Bunny does not hide eggs in 6 inches of snow. So this year we really confused Zach and did the egg hunt inside the house. "MOM.... the Easter Bunny has a key to our HOUSE! He unlocked the door and came in!!!!" Nothing gets past Zach. We just kind of laughed and said "Yep!" Then he said... "But, how does he open the door with his rabbit feet?" Uhhhhhh..... blank stares on our faces. I'm not sure what to say anymore. The best thing to do is just change the subject in hopes that he will stop asking. "Oh my gosh!!! Look at all that candy he brought you!"

Sometimes during these holidays I feel guilty. The whole Santa Claus thing and Easter Bunny and Tooth Fairy. I know there will be a day of heart break when they find out from some little kid at school that it's all pretend. For me I don't exactly remember how I found out the Easter Bunny wasn't real. But I do remember how I found out about Santa Claus! My brother received Jazz tickets in his stocking one year and thanked my parents! I caught on fast and I was crushed!
So I guess it's bound to happen. We'll be hated for lying, but then they'll realize we are Santa Claus, and the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy (and whatever else) so they better be nice to us, or the fun stops! hahaha. Hope you all had a Happy Easter!

The finished product of egg coloring.

Alexander got this duck from the Easter Bunny

It was as big as him!

We were laughing so hard, because he packed it around the house the entire day!

Always a fun time in SD!

2010-03-28T15:56:00.001-07:00

So, we're home. We decided it would be a good idea to get back to the real world... ya know the usual stuff. Schedules, school, work, cooking, cleaning, organizing. Here are some fun photos of our most favorite place.

Alexander loved to eat the sand!

Zachary loved to see a stop light that was his same height!

And a car his same height with the Charger bolt

Incredible...

Taking a stroll through the park on a sunny day

Zachary took these last 2 photos! He's a natural.

80 degrees!!!

2010-03-19T11:32:00.001-07:00

spon·ta·ne·ous

–adjective

Coming or resulting from a natural impulse or tendency;
without effort or premeditation; natural and unconstrained; unplanned

This photo was taken last Saturday at the mall. March 13th we had a typical spring snow storm... we couldn't take it anymore, so we decided to hang out at the mall the whole day. It's a wonderful place to be (unless your obsessed with snow) because you can't see anything outside when you're inside a big mall! There's not a lot of windows and right now all the spring and summer clothes are out, so really you can pretend it's warm outside! I'm pretty sure that was our intention when we spent that day there. The cold and snow in the middle of March was making us lose our minds. As you can see the boys loved our day at the mall!

All was fine and dandy when we got home. We went to sleep, then the next morning Danny had this funny look in his eyes. An "unconstrained" look in his eyes! He yelled... "Pack up the car we're going to San Diego." At that point I knew he was serious and I just did as I was told! We got the car packed in less than an hour and we jumped in the car and drove South. We stayed the night in Vegas. Then arrived in San Diego on Monday afternoon. We couldn't have "planned" it during a better week. The weather has been awesome! 80 degrees with clear sky's. Imagine heaven... that is what it's like (well for me anyway) Danny has been working everyday, but it's worked out fine. I take the kids to play in the sun and Danny satisfies his clients, so at the end of the day we're all happy.

I'm blogging as I sit in the kitchen nook of Danny's parents house on top of Mt. Helix in La Mesa. The sun shines through these windows and it's all I can do to keep from pressing my face up against the glass to feel the sun beating down on me. This trip has been a perfect eye opener for me. As many of you know I'm a huge planner. I have to have things scheduled and planned out. I usually get anxiety if something messes up my "plans" At least I thought I was that way! I've realized that I love being spontaneous and unplanned. I've felt a lot of peace during this trip. I think I'm going to go unplanned for a while!

We're off to rent bikes in Coronado. Not sure when we're coming home. It doesn't really matter when. It doesn't need to be planned right?!

Walking, laughing, and more walking...

2010-03-07T08:11:00.000-08:00

On Tuesday night I went out to dinner with one of my closest girlfriends and when I came home the kids were in bed (I kind of planned it that way!) Anyway, Danny showed me this video when I got home. And I'll have you know all day Tuesday he wasn't walking like this! This happened fast!

Here's a video that will put a smile on your face! I'll take this over screaming and crying during dinner any day!

And Part 2 of the walking babe. This video was taken on Friday. You'll notice a little band-aid on his forehead. He hit his head on the chest we have in the living room. It split open and bled quiet a bit, but luckily no stitches. I think the band-aid made him more mad than anything.

As of today, right now as we speak Alexander is trying to run to keep up with Zach! He walks all over the house. His crawling days are over with. He prefers walking now! He likes to get into the towel drawer in the kitchen. He picks a hand towel of his choosing and carry's it around the whole house. Warning... Do not try to take the towel away!

This is us!

2010-02-28T19:03:00.000-08:00

Gateway mall at downtown Salt Lake. One of our outings this weekend. Many of you know that this is an outdoor mall and we laugh, because there are really only 4 months out of the year that you can fully enjoy the awesome shopping here. (without freezing your butt off.) You can obviously go on the colder months, however, you better be bundle up! We are actually sitting around a huge fire pit in these photos. The weather has been warming up to about the low 50's. The wind was kind of blowing here, so it was more like 38 degrees! We are so ready for warm weather, the sun, and getting outside more!

Anyway, enough about that! My mom and Danny and starting a HCG diet tomorrow. They're both very excited about it. Our close friend and neighbor Jared is assisting them with the diet. He's basically like their personal trainer. He has a work out plan in place for them and everything is mapped out as far as what they can and can not eat. They will be taking their measurements and weight each week and they will journal everything! So, we expect nothing but great progress on them both! With them starting it at the same time, they will be a great support system! If you're interested in this or want more info, get in touch with me and I'll hook you up with Jared's contact info.

Let's see... what else has been going on with us... Oh yes, we'll be expecting baby number 3 in November! We wanted to wait until we heard the heart beat before making the formal announcement, but we really want everyone to know! My blood levels are being watched closely by my OBGYN and we're just praying this baby is growing in the right place. I was very nervous to try again with the thought of the ectopic pregnancy happening again. But I didn't want to live in fear and I know Heavenly Father has a plan for us and there is a purpose for everything that happens in our lives! Speaking of a plan and purpose... This is how we found out.

I was at Huntsman having my routine appointment and blood work done. I asked them to draw a pregnancy test just to see. And what do ya know... it came back positive!!! My blood looked great and no lumps on my body, so I couldn't be more happy!!! I find this quiet ironic. The last time I found out I was pregnant (with Alexander) I was at Huntsman for my routine CT scan that I have done every year now. Then the next time I find out I'm pregnant I'm up there having blood drawn. I remember very fondly 3 years ago sitting in the infusion room at Huntsman getting one of my last treatments of chemotherapy and thinking... "This is it. This is my life. I'm 25 years old and I wont have the opportunity to experience having another baby. I have Zachary and he will grow up to be an only child. I want more children and I wont have that opportunity. This chemo has run deep through my blood and ruined my chances of that experience." Believe me when I say I had this conversation with myself. It made me sad. I got very down and depressed. I lost all faith and hope of being able to have more kids.

And now. The two times I've found out I'm pregnant have been at Huntsman. The very same building where I saw no hope for life beyond cancer. I feel so blessed and I continue to be amazed that my body is able to create these perfect human beings after all it's been through. Heavenly Father has a plan and I believe that with all my heart. I'll keep you all updated as the pregnancy progresses.

Mr. Attitude...

2010-02-25T20:18:00.000-08:00

Alexander had his year check up and everything went great. He's a plump, healthy little boy! While we were there the Doc told us he would start showing a little attitude, and that he will figure out that when he whine's or cries he'll get attention. And I just laughed, because I'm thinking... "Um, let's not forget he is only 12 months old!" When we got home from the Dr. I set him down to play. Not 5 minutes later he started screaming. Not crying. Screaming/yelling. I came in and look what I found... Mr. Attitude!

There was a toy at the bottom of the chest and he was so mad he couldn't reach it. Don't worry though... Zachary came to his rescue, because I was too busy catching this on camera. Just another moment in my life when I see how fast all of this is going by.

He say's "Uh Oh!"

My sweet baby is ONE!

2010-02-17T20:15:00.000-08:00

Happy 1st Birthday to our little Alexander. What a fun night with great company! Thanks to everyone for coming and celebrating Alexander first year!

Happy Valentines Day!!!

2010-02-14T08:43:00.001-08:00

This is one of my favorite holidays! I'm realizing each year as Zachary gets older how much fun Valentines Day is! He was so excited to have his Valentines party at school on Friday. It was way cute to see all the little valentines he came home with. After school we delivered a little surprise to Danny's office. First the boys took him a bag of candy with a balloon tied to it. It was way cute! Then out in the parking lot we decorated Danny's car! We kissed post it notes with bright red lipstick and stuck them all over his car, then tied balloons on his side mirror. Zach was giggling the whole entire time. It was way too funny! I felt like a 16 year old again... but it was a fun thing for Zach.. and that's what it's all about these days. I love anything that makes the kids smile and giggle! This year I wish I would've created more time to make these things... I just love the stuff Martha Stewart does. These are for sure on the agenda for next years Valentines.

A Milestone!

2010-02-12T22:00:00.000-08:00

And so it begins... I was opening the mail the today in the kitchen and Zachary was outside riding his bike in the cul-de-sac. Thank goodness for warmer weather, because I'm not sure I can contain him inside the house any longer... anyways, back to the mail opening. I sat Alexander down in the kitchen and he was crawling around all over the place. I heard something that really caught my attention... little tiny footsteps, then he grabbed the back of my leg. He wasn't walking around the cabinets. He stood up and walked right to me. I just started laughing! I took him in the living room and stood him up to see if he would do it again and he did. I could have cried at that very moment, but instead I just laughed thinking "yeah right... this is not happening!" Well, folks it is and I'm not too sure I like it! On Tuesday my baby will be 1 years old and I'm feeling like I have 2 little boys now instead of 1 little boy and a baby boy. Zach has been practicing with Alexander with this little train that Santa brought. So, I think Zach is the culprit!

Is this really how fast time goes by?

This is what happens when you take his train away

He was looking out the window and saw these fun toys... along with the snow and started crying. Don't worry Alex I've been crying too!

We have a 5 year old?

2010-02-03T15:42:00.001-08:00

Zachary's little Birthday party was so fun! Jungle Jim's was a lot of fun and his friends loved it! They played around for an hour, then we had pizza and cake. Zachary opened presents and then they had a little pinata for the kids. However... Danny got a turn, because the thing wouldn't break and we probably would've been there all night. All in all the kids had a blast! You will notice Alexander has a death grip on a blue balloon. He would not let go of this balloon the entire time and if you tried to take it away he would cry! It was quite funny... It ended up popping (in his face) not fun. He was SO sad. Then we found him a red one and he was fine!

This year Zach chose a tank cake. Kind of random, since he's not into army stuff at all. I think because the tank was a transformer and he knew he could keep it once he blew out the candles. In fact... he has already taken it for show & tell at school!

We got him a new bike and he loves it. He's been riding it everyday after school!

Papou feeding Alexander ice cream!

The Gang: (from left) Jack, Graham, Abby, Will, Zach, Easton, Jayden, Ellison,
and Jaxon is off to the side... (not a fan of the camera!)

Alex's first carousel ride. He's crying in this picture... the carousel stopped and he got very upset! (we were laughing!)

The night before Zach's birthday I was very sneaky and decorated his room with streamers, balloons and a Happy Birthday banner. He stayed asleep the whole time... I was so proud that I managed to pull it off! My mom did that when I was growing up, so I thought I would continue on the tradition. This is the first year I've done it and he absolutely loved it! He came into our room at 6am and woke me up. And let me just say... he is so sweet when he wakes me up in the morning. I think he knows I'm not a morning person! He rubbed me hand very gentle and said "Mom, thank you so much for decorating my room for my birthday. I just loved it and I was so surprised. How did you do that so quiet so that I didn't hear you?!" It was very cute!!!

He's such a little man! Kindergarten this fall... I just can't believe it!
He's been celebrating his birthday all week. His party was on Saturday Jan 30th, then his actual Birthday was Monday Feb 1st. We took him to lunch before school, then I made him his favorite dinner at home that he chose (Japanese pot-stickers with rice and tofu), then we went bowling! Wednesday Feb 3rd (today) they celebrated his birthday at school. SO.... He's been partying hard for the past week! Alexander is next! February 16th

Funny little boys...

2010-01-29T18:27:00.001-08:00

Hallelujah it's Friday! For some reason it's been a long week. Tomorrow Zachary is having his 5th Birthday Party at Jungle Jim's. He invited 10 friends (all boys) And 9 of them are coming, so it will be a lot of fun! He's been telling me all day today that he can't wait to go to bed, so that tomorrow get's here fast! His actual Birthday is February 1st, but he wanted a party and friends (of course) so we're having it on Saturday. And don't worry he's been informing everyone we encounter (including the cashier at Smiths, Harmon's, Target, ect.) that his party is on January 30th and his Birthday is February 1st. I made sure he understood when we planned the party, so he is making sure everyone in the world knows too. Just in case. :)

As for the little guy... (Alexander) He has inherited the name "piggy". He eats and eats and eats. I've been cooking 3 full meals a day for these boys. Let's just say, the kitchen is where we spend most of the day! He's been getting his little hands into whatever he can squeeze them into. He is into everything. He's very smart. Zachary just can't get enough of him. He gives him about 1,000 kisses a day and loves playing hide and seek with him... Zach will crawl on the floor and hide behind the couch, then Alexander crawls as fast as he can to find Zach. Then Alex will scream and laugh when he finds Zach. It's so cute and makes us all laugh! Tonight Danny showed me this new app he got on his iPhone. It's called Photospeak. It's hilarious. We uploaded it to YouTube. Click Here

I'll be sure to post photos of the little party animals...

Mmmmm cookies!

2010-01-19T09:15:00.000-08:00

Alexander can't talk, but there is one thing we all know for certain. He LOVES food. He will eat whatever we give him! It's awesome! He has been crawling all over the house for a few weeks now. He's not walking yet, but getting very close. He pulls himself onto his feet and walks around the furniture, cabinets, appliances, pretty much everything! He is very nervous to let go of anything to take a few steps on his own, but that is ok! Zachary picks him up underneath his arm pits and packs him all around the house. It's pretty funny, but every once in a while Alex takes a face plant into the floor and gets quite upset. Needless to say Alexander is about 23 lbs now and Zach can't keep up with his body weight. They are just the sweetest little boys and such cute brother's!

Zach reminded Danny and I this morning that he will be 5 in 11 days. He hasn't really been counting down the days, so it was kind of random. This morning he asked what the date was and I told him the 19th. He left the room and came back a couple minutes later and said... "MOM, DAD... 11 more days until I turn 5!" Little smarty pants! Then, just 2 (short) weeks later Alexander turns 1. Lots of birthdays and cakes coming right up!

"Don't hold your breath..." (unless you live in Utah)

2010-01-12T15:52:00.000-08:00

"Breathing was a hazardous activity in Utah county on Monday" that was the headline news yesterday (Monday, January 11, 2010) And, well, um.... that doesn't work well when you have a very active little boy (almost 5 years old) who "really, really" wants to ride his scooter! He got a new razor scooter for Christmas and he's been wanting to take it for a ride everyday. Monday happened to be a very nice, sunny day. However... the air is the "worst in the nation" wonderful!
I've been hearing and reading so much about the air in Utah and how it causes asthma in children. I'm starting to get very paranoid! I think Danny and I see a move in the future!

I found it fitting to take some photos while we were out breathing the toxic air. My paranoia set in, so we were only out for a few minutes!
If you want to know how nasty it is... click here

A little time away

2010-01-06T18:57:00.000-08:00

This past weekend Danny and I went up to Midway for a little overnight stay. I planned it for his birthday, but couldn't keep it a surprise! We left on Saturday afternoon. First we stopped for a light, quiet, relaxing sushi lunch, then saw "It's Complicated." We gave it two thumbs up! Then we made our way up to our timeshare in Midway. That evening we went to dinner in Park City. Then Sunday morning we hit the slopes at Sundance. Thanks again to Amy who stayed at our house to watch the boys for us. It was a much needed break. We're already talking about when and where we're going next!

Oh and about this Ice... It's up at the Zermatt Resort in Midway. Right next to our timeshare. If you want to read the full story click here. Very cool!

Exhausted!

Time for a new beenie... xango? Random...

Happy 2010!!!

2010-01-01T09:51:00.000-08:00

As the new year begins we look back on the past years events and once again find ourselves smiling and saying... Wow! For us this year has been one amazing year filled with Love, Joy, Friendships, Trust, Patience & Miracles...
(the birth of Alexander)

The other day I found myself really looking back on the past few years and got so emotional to think I'm here and breathing! Last month on December 12, 2009 was my 3 year mark of being cancer free. I was wondering just last week why I didn't blog about it and I think sometimes I just want to pretend it never happened. I remember how I felt during that time in my life and I'm ashamed to say I really wanted to give up. I didn't want to keep fighting. It was my amazing husband that kept fighting for me. Zachary was only 18 months old and I knew he would be just fine without me and thought he wasn't really old enough to remember me.
The memory isn't very clear, but I do remember at night during my battle with cancer I would close my eyes and I would see Zachary's face and his darling smile. I truly believe this was Heavenly Father's way of saying... "Look at this face. You will win this battle, just keep fighting."

I didn't want to fight the fight. It was easier for me to give up. I'm ashamed of my attitude during that time. I had no faith that I would make it through. The true relationships and support that we had with family and friends during our battle with cancer is one of the only reasons I kept fighting. I knew people loved me!

I see life now. Life is a battle. We are dealt with many trials. Some are much more difficult than others, but lets be honest... everyday it's something. Life is can be amazing if you let it be. I choose to have a beautiful, amazing life filled with love and pure joy. I am so grateful that I kept breathing! Cheers to another amazing year ahead! Happy New Year!

All the things during the past week... our top 10 anyway!

2009-12-29T20:12:00.000-08:00

1.) I surprised Danny and made Hushka!
A quick background... Danny's family has a Christmas tradition to make this yummy bread. (Hushka) It goes back many, many years and I've been scared to death to make it. After 6 years of marriage I figured I better get to it! This was the first year I've attempted it. It was a success!

Zachary helped...

At this point I'm praying that I didn't mess it up!

The final product! Beauty in it's purest form!

Danny walks in the door from work and was so excited to slice into the
delicious masterpiece! I think he liked it!

Zach is picking at it... Thinking about maybe trying some...

Alexander loved it!

2.) Alexander thinks he wants to walk... but we really don't want that now do we?!

3.) Delivering yummy homemade Baklava which comes from my family. Growing up we would deliver this mouth watering treat before Christmas to our neighbors and friends.

4.) I realized how wonderful and easy the nightly routine is when these 2 little cuties can take a bath together!

5.) The Night Before Christmas... 1 present to open

Matching pajamas.

6.) A tradition in the making... Christmas Eve sledding.

Weeeeeee!!!

7.) Zachary coaxed Papou (my dad) to sled down with him. "Only one time Papou!!!"

8.) A beautiful Christmas Morning... the sun shinning into our Kitchen nook.

9.) Santa came and left with a few extra pounds on him. This plate was heaping with cookies!

10.) Last but not least... We celebrate Danny's Birthday! Also, he would be happy to know I informed you that the Charger's played on his birthday and they won! Happy Birthday to Danny and go Chargers!

As for right now... present day. I've been organizing the whole house! I get into this mode and some times are worse than others. Worse meaning I will really spend a few days organizing everything. Well, I've been in the mode for the past 2 days! It's been great. Closets are clean and straight. All new toys have bins and all old toys are being donated. Tonight I completed the last of it and I can't begin to tell you how happy I am. Ikea has been a great help during my "mode" And keep in mind loading shelves into the car with 2 little boys during a snow storm is not a good idea!

The-Christmas-Spirit

2009-12-22T15:22:00.000-08:00

I just had to share this. Please click on the link below.
The-Christmas-Spirit

Merry Christmas!!!

2009-12-22T09:54:00.000-08:00

I have really abandoned the blog for a while. Right now it's snowing like crazy outside! The snow plows are out in full force. I'm watching the snow fall as I type and it's just beautiful! There is nothing better than a white Christmas! As you can imagine we've been busy around here. We had our first family of 4 photos done this season by our close friend and neighbor Kevin Winzeler. It was very cold out during the photo-shoot, but we survived and are excited how darling they turned out! Thanks again to Kevin for spending the time with us!

I'm sad to report that Alexander is crawling (fast) all over the house. Pulling himself up onto whatever he can find! He especially loves all the fun buttons on the DVD player. I say sad, because he isn't a little baby anymore! He's growing up so fast! This is his first Christmas. Therefore our first Christmas with 2 kids! Shopping has been a lot of fun.

We are missing everyone in San Diego this Christmas. I had a dream the other night that Santa came to our house early so we could open gifts, then we loaded the car up and drove to SD to be with everyone. Then I woke up! I wasn't sure if this was considered a good dream or not. The thought of spending 12 hours in the car with 2 very active, talkative little boys didn't strike me as something "fun". I'm actually surprised I didn't wake up in the middle of an anxiety attack.

I am so grateful for my amazing husband. His Birthday is on Christmas day!!! What a beautiful day to be born! It doesn't surprise me that he shares his birthday with the birth of our Heavenly Father. He has truly been an inspiration to me and every year just gets better and better! We've been through so many trials over the years and I look forward to at least 100 more years of whatever life throws at us! The gift below is from Zachary to Danny for his Birthday. He picked this out all on his own. I'll inform you on how he came up with the idea after Christmas. I don't want to ruin the surprise for Danny. (every once in a while he reads the blog!)

Merry Christmas to everyone! We love and cherish each one of you and are so blessed with your friendship. Enjoy this beautiful season!

Winter Festivities...

2009-12-13T19:38:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning and we had about 12 inches of new snow. Just a little FYI... It's very hard to get motivated for church (that starts at 9am) with all this snow!!! Staying cozy in my pajama's sounded like a much better plan, until Zachary came in to my room and said "I want the bread and water and to see my friends in primary!" If that doesn't get my butt to church I don't know what does! We came out of church with more snow! It just snowed the whole time we were in there. 3 straight hours. Unreal I tell ya! After church, Danny made homemade Ham & Bean Lentil Soup. So delicious! We enjoyed our bowls of soup all cozy next to the fire and decided to go mess up the beautiful untouched new snow in the yard! You'll see our amazing snowman we built! We are so very proud. Once it was done, we took a step back and Zach says... "Let's name him Frosty" So, there he sits greeting anyone that comes to the door. Alexander was taking a nap during the fun, so I'll be sure to post pictures of him with Frosty very soon!

On Friday our little Elf, Zachary had a Christmas Program with his preschool. He was so excited to perform all the classic Christmas songs! He had a small speaking part with this cute little girl named Alyse. In the microphone they said... "It's Christmas Eve!!!" It was just darling! When we first arrived at the program he ran up to the stage and sat right next to her. I think there might be a little crush going on! hehe...

It's HERE!!!

2009-12-08T15:58:00.000-08:00

I think we have about 12 inches in the backyard. Right when it stopped coming down Zachary found it necessary to shovel the trampoline! He informed me when I opened the door to take these pictures that he "loves the taste of snow" I felt it would probably be a good time to give him a heads up about Yellow Snow! At that point I guess the topic of conversation made him feel the sudden urge to pee, so I found it an opportune time to prove my point about yellow snow. I let him pee outside on the side of the house! "This is Yellow Snow... Please DO NOT EAT!" The lesson was quick and easy. And not a lot of questions! Done and Done!